Walk Away From The Drama | Weekly Tarot Reading | 10/2 - 10/8 - Cosmic Updates

Walk Away From The Drama | Weekly Tarot Reading | 10/2 – 10/8

Is there someone in your life whose actions are confusing you?

Has a certain situation been disrupting you emotionally lately?

Jonathan Lionheart says that you could discover a truth that has been withheld from you this week, giving you the opportunity to make better decisions moving forward.

He’s here to help you take control of your situation so you can regain your peace of mind, here in his Weekly Tarot Reading. Enjoy!

 

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P.S. Do you suspect that someone isn’t being fully honest with you? Do you feel like you need to protect your heart? Leave a comment below and let Jonathan know!

Jonathan Lionheart
jonathan@cosmicupdates.com

As a doctoral student in Somatic Studies, Jonathan Lionheart has always been fascinated with things beyond this world. His thirst for knowledge led Jonathan to the Tarot, which he quickly absorbed as his go-to method for getting direct insights from the Universe.

304 Comments
  • Elvira
    Posted at 18:34h, 20 October Reply

    Thank you for the reading it is so accurate.and yes it is happened in my life now.thank you so much.always reading your messages tarot.namaste.

  • Marie Jean Dimalanta
    Posted at 06:39h, 08 October Reply

    Yesss i need a clear vision regarding my lovelife on what will it be in the furure..are we meant each other?

  • Amy
    Posted at 22:33h, 05 October Reply

    Hi Jonathan, wow this was a welcome surprise! I thank you for your words and mantra, a wonderful reminder to protect myself from those who are not for the greater good, I call them soul suckers. Life has dealt me a few jokers, I’m shifting and let them go abruptly, felt it was my duty as my world is upside down and am experiencing some major life changes. I don’t need anything or anyone distracting me from my purpose. I am safe and will remember that the sun will shine again even after this storm passes and so it be 1111🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

  • Ina Hellemons
    Posted at 06:19h, 05 October Reply

    Thank you Jonathan for your reading. You are nailing it. What the cards are saying is exactjy what is going on in my life right now. I feel like I have to protect my heart against different people . I am desperatly trying to see where all this betrayal and unkindness is coming from and it makes me feel lonely. You are telling me that I need to feel safe to get clarity and that I have to put some effort in it myself. I am going to focus on the last card that tells me that I am safe. Thank you for showing me all this.

  • Sugie Garcia
    Posted at 01:50h, 05 October Reply

    Oh….one more thing, I really like the video better, hearing your voice and explanation resonates with me. Thanks for the video.

  • Sugie Garcia
    Posted at 01:35h, 05 October Reply

    Hello, Your reading hits home and can apply to my personal life as well as at work. I am safe. Things, I feel are not what they seem at home, my storytelling mind can sometimes play tricks on me, therefore, I need to trust until I have a reason not to. And at work, the immature one is a coworker and I need to protect myself and my boundaries. I am making progress finding my self worth and confidence…my safe place. Thanks …until next time.

  • Kevin B Palmer
    Posted at 22:32h, 04 October Reply

    Spot on thanks for the reading exactly whats going on your awesome

  • Cindy
    Posted at 20:07h, 04 October Reply

    I really prefer reading the blog instead a video. Pls continue with email and written blog. Thanks

  • Pamela Noland
    Posted at 19:10h, 04 October Reply

    I have enjoyed your readings. They have provided insight and helped in trying times to find comfort. I have been amazed in how much has hit home .

  • Sandra
    Posted at 09:29h, 04 October Reply

    It is really nice seeing 😍 you!! WoW, I resonated DEEPLY with your reading as it relates to my current situation happening right now for me. You explain things so clearly and gracefully and your advice is always very much appreciated.🙏Love, Light, and Blessings Always!!!

  • Christine Maria Vitarisi
    Posted at 04:23h, 04 October Reply

    So lovely to finally see you and hear your voice. You are very insightful. I very much appreciate your words and overall guidance. It’s like you know me and what I am going through
    . Looking forward to hearing from you again.

    Thank you and God Bless

  • Kayla Y. Clolinger Helm
    Posted at 03:05h, 04 October Reply

    JOHNATHAN i must say. Thank you for such accurate readings. The resignate closer than most that I read. I lok forward daily to your readings. I have the a A+++ but now that your doing the readings via video. Oh thats even better. Thank you for your time your work and for simply being you.

  • Monique
    Posted at 00:10h, 04 October Reply

    Your accuracy is so on point ! Thank you .
    I’m at such a cross road in my life with someone ,who I feel is not the right one ,longterm for me .
    I have never in my life , felt like my energy is being sucked out of me around him?
    I’m working so hard to become successful so I can leave sooner?

  • Shawna
    Posted at 21:30h, 03 October Reply

    .. this message is confirmation of so many questions I’ve had about so many things. But I still have so many!!

  • Deborah Rapoza
    Posted at 20:24h, 03 October Reply

    I cannot believe how much your reading/video was correct. Omg. You are awesome Thank you. I look forward to your reading next week!

    • Nyeleti Irene Nkuna
      Posted at 20:45h, 03 October Reply

      It’s like he knows what I’m going through right now, he’s reading about my current situation

  • Jann heyen
    Posted at 19:58h, 03 October Reply

    Spot on. Someone was manipulating me, I left because I was stuck in a situation that was going nowhere, now I am moving forward and feel safe. Thanks for the reading.

  • Yvonne Teresa Lessard Sherman
    Posted at 19:01h, 03 October Reply

    Hi Jonathan, First off, I look forward to your interpretations of the Tarot World. I was also impressed with your credentials. I am a woman and I have really bad luck. I have been on tons of dating sites and to no avail that was a mistake. I would love to meet a man who respects me and treats me like the lady that I am. Any suggestions? Thank you so much and you seem like you are a very kind person.

  • Leanne Reshat
    Posted at 17:27h, 03 October Reply

    This really resonates with me. Thank you so much. Sending love and light. Leanne xx

  • Katherine Sturm
    Posted at 15:38h, 03 October Reply

    Hi Jonathan, Great reading that obviously touched many of us. Your suggestions are most helpful. So good to see you on video – such wisdom in one so young. Many blessings on your journey of spreading love and light. I look forward to your future postings. I have kept copies of your past sessions and find it helpful to see the suggestions and words that are spoken with grace and a great deal of kindness. ! You have a most appreciative audience. Thank You. Katherine

    • Amanda Hardee
      Posted at 17:20h, 03 October Reply

      Thanks you so much. You were right on it. Everything you said was exactly what is going on. Thanks again. Will be looking forward to hearing from you again.

  • Helena
    Posted at 15:10h, 03 October Reply

    Wow, you are so cute and you have so wonderful name! And I liked your taro reading as well! Many blessings!!!

  • Shannan Marie
    Posted at 15:00h, 03 October Reply

    Uhhhmmm… this couldn’t have been more dead on to how I have been feeling. I love when this happens and the universe speaks and I don’t feel crazy. Thank you for being the vessel. I appreciate you. <3

  • Sefu Sanni
    Posted at 14:58h, 03 October Reply

    Thanks Jonathan…I appreciate this reading.

  • Cinzia Citrigno
    Posted at 14:35h, 03 October Reply

    Dear Jonathan,
    It was truly nice to watch the reading and see you online. After following Karma’s reading recently, I was wandering why you were not doing the same. You may not remember me, but I remember your words during a private reading, and I can tell you that you were right. It was about a Karmic relationship, and as you suggested we had both to work on ourselves….your words this week seem to be adressed to me, because I met last week ‘HIM’….and I know I have to be careful.
    I’ll keep you updated…and thanks to you!

  • Jayshree Mohan
    Posted at 14:22h, 03 October Reply

    Thank You Johnathan, today’s reading was spot on for me.
    yes, the lies stealing etc.. from persons in my past has helped me grow, strengthen and protect myself for the present and future.
    Yes, what I am looking for is a place of peace, happiness, love and protection, and feel that with my current partner…. I have found that I have never felt this with anyone else.

  • Namara Festa
    Posted at 13:52h, 03 October Reply

    Thank you, stay blessed. I like the mantra of the week, am safe and when am safe, I can see the truth of what’s going on.

    • Darlene White
      Posted at 19:31h, 04 October Reply

      Thank you for the reading.sometimes I don’t feel safe.

  • Viviane Banoun
    Posted at 13:47h, 03 October Reply

    So nice to see you finally. The man you discribe is my ex husband. you are right it was hell.
    Now I am waiting for my soulmate and I will be careful too and follow my intuition.
    Thank you
    Viviane

  • Yvonne Hoffman
    Posted at 13:38h, 03 October Reply

    Thank you, you hit this one right on the nose. I feel I am being lied to . ALot. !!
    Afraid to move on.

  • Kundana mangalapu
    Posted at 13:35h, 03 October Reply

    Thank you very much to Jonathan Lionheart sir 🙏🙏 for weekly tarot card reading 🙏🙏 thank you so much for your always attention with me in every week 🙏🙏i am very thankful to you once again 😍🙏🤗sir for your humble nature 🙏 and thank you so much to cosmic updates also 🙏🤗.

  • Monique Alvarez
    Posted at 13:34h, 03 October Reply

    Hello Johnathan and thank you for the reading. My n is Monique I’ve been married for 20 years2 horrible narcissist he’s been controlling me now for about15 years every move I make everything he wants to hear he needs so much growing up he needs to understand like isn’t a game we love playing with people’s hearts especially mine we have seven children together he’s like that with them too we’re in a position in our life where homeless constantly putting us through these situations is hurtful situations not paying the rent left on the streets now and now it’s time for me to stand up and walk away from him I’m scared God knows I’m scared I know I could be strong I know I am strong couldn’t God give me the strength and help me with my situation and the stress means to an end MyHealth and the kids happiness I thank you so much for this reading it’s helped me so much today and hopefully and give me a better future thank you

  • Rita Sa
    Posted at 13:10h, 03 October Reply

    HI Dear Jonathan thank you so much for the Tarot weekly video. So nice to se you and here your voice thank you so much. God is so true i feel stuck i can’t move forward i can’t be my real person because of a member of my family make me fell very insecure in my life and i jus can’t move forward do way i lake is so sad but is this way i feel what I can do i feel stuck in my life i jus can’t be happy please dear Jonathan let me know if will be free of this fear in my life our if my life will be for ever like this live with fear all my life i feel so stuck thank you. God bless you.

  • Victoria
    Posted at 12:53h, 03 October Reply

    Yes this is absolutely true manipulation has come into play because of things I won’t tolerate in my relationship and lies and deceit because of those things as well I need to guard my heart and remove myself unless it actually can get better

  • Angelina Popovska
    Posted at 12:53h, 03 October Reply

    That is exactly what is happening. I was deceived of ilusion about my relationship and act immature. Now i can see a truth that there wasn’t any serious relationship or maybe the second half is hindering their emotions. Also in my family circle a lot growing and hopefully right decisions are going on. When i get out of ilusion then i am safe and safe is what 8s right. Thank you

  • Aneetrai Rowland
    Posted at 12:40h, 03 October Reply

    You are so greatly appreciate, this message resonates. I just wish for peace.

  • Michele Butler
    Posted at 11:28h, 03 October Reply

    The accuracy of the reading in regards to the deceit of someone and immaturity was dead on ! The safety issue also ! I hope the outcome is accurate! It’s been overdo for change and I really need to move forward. This person has left myself and others stuck for too long ! Thank you

  • Lea Centauri
    Posted at 10:38h, 03 October Reply

    Lionheart…thankyou so much…..this is exactly what has happened….and I’m so glad to receive this positive read from you….yes…absolutely…..and thank you for the pray of clarity and protection….this pray was in my meditation this morning…you are on point.,,,,,,,hugs and big love….

    • Jossette
      Posted at 12:27h, 03 October Reply

      Thank you have a great day

      • Ann-kristin
        Posted at 20:02h, 03 October Reply

        Hello and thanks for the card
        Just wanted to say that much of what was said rings true in relation to what is happening in my life now and the situation I am in.

  • Jaz S
    Posted at 10:26h, 03 October Reply

    You’re a real boy! Thank you for this reading Mr Lionheart. Awesome name! I do like having the written format of readings, however, I felt this reading was a little too quick but still enjoyed it. Looking forward to the next reading 🙂 x

  • K MISHAK
    Posted at 10:19h, 03 October Reply

    In the area where I live the internet isn’t strong because of this it is almost impossible to get video to load. Is there anyway to see these written out again. I really enjoyed your reading but may have to stop because of the difficulty of loading video. thank you Kat

  • TAKAENDESA
    Posted at 09:14h, 03 October Reply

    I ALWAYS LOOK FORWARD TO JONATHANS WEEKLY READING.EVEN THIS TOUCHED ME.THANK YOU SO MUCH

    • Jonathan Lionheart
      Posted at 09:48h, 03 October Reply

      🙂 You’re very welcome.

    • Paula Rock
      Posted at 12:20h, 03 October Reply

      I do believe thT he is hidden something from me and it’s literally dri ING me crazy trying to figure out what it is ..I can’t sleep knowing that he thinks I’m stupid and the I don’t k own that he is using me

      • Namara Festa
        Posted at 13:42h, 03 October Reply

        Thank you, stay blessed.

  • Dean Benton
    Posted at 08:45h, 03 October Reply

    I’ve felt there was deceit for a long time now. Thank you Jonothan…for the confirmation that someone hasn’t grown out of this yet.

  • Nancy Donohue
    Posted at 08:42h, 03 October Reply

    I agree with Susan a hundred percent

  • Evangeline
    Posted at 08:34h, 03 October Reply

    Thank you , I can take and use this message. Hugs

  • Susan
    Posted at 08:12h, 03 October Reply

    May I ask why the updates have gone to a video format? I understand that this is appealing to many followers, but I definitely prefer the written forecasts, since I can keep them for the week and review them at my leisure, while really thinking about the words. Is it possible to offer an either/or choice? Because if it is going to be videos from now on, I will probably unsubscribe. Thanks.

    • Jonathan Lionheart
      Posted at 09:50h, 03 October Reply

      Hey Susan, we will take this preference into consideration. As an alternative for now, how would you feel about a transcription of the video that you could access?

  • Justine
    Posted at 08:10h, 03 October Reply

    This is spot on. I am not the one being manipulative and not growing it’s the other person. But I do feel that this person is about to change and grow and show me their truth soon. Then I will need to make the best decision for myself on whether to continue or not.

  • Patricia Finks
    Posted at 08:10h, 03 October Reply

    I really enjoyed your live reading todau. I read your information daily.Patricia Finkspatriciafinks@att,net|

  • Monique M Fox
    Posted at 08:01h, 03 October Reply

    Crazy …right on spot . It’s been rough dealing with deception from someone that I had completely trusted. Lessons learned, recovering and moving on. I will not allow this to have power over me. I have the power, power to be strong, balanced within no matter what stirs outside.
    Thank you…Have a fabulously fantastic day.

  • Marnie Brown
    Posted at 07:36h, 03 October Reply

    I believe the guy I’ve been seeing for almost 3 years is keeping a secret from me. It’s a weird situation with us. It’s not a traditional relationship. I only see him at night and once or twice a week. Or not at all that week. Some times, more often than not he’ll go silent for a few days . Ignores my text, won’t answer my call. I can’t help but to be suspicious. Truly I need to just let this whole toxic connection go. But something keeps pulling me back. I swear I feel when he is sad, has anxiety, or when he is thinking about me. Idk. Maybe I’m crazy. My encounter with him when we very first met was so spiritual. I just knew we belonged together but how he is towards me I just can’t keep allowing me to go thru it.

    I’m so confused.

    • Jonathan Lionheart
      Posted at 09:53h, 03 October Reply

      Sounds challenging Marnie. I’m a strong advocate for creating healthy boundaries. Sometimes you have to be brave enough to push someone away to a healthier space. If it’s meant to be, they will grow up and show up imho.

  • Jessica Johnson
    Posted at 07:27h, 03 October Reply

    Gm your 100% right with my reading I was in a 6 year relationship and I was being honest loving and caring for my other half all I do is work and take care of everything and on the other hand all he does is cheat disrespect and do me tings I don’t deserve because I was doing so much for him I had to put him out of my house and after putting him out I found out he has multiple relationships with me I feel so betrayed and loss and its so hard to get him out my head I think I still do love him but I can’t live the life he leads with so many woman in between he told me he wants to come back home do u think that’s a smart move or he’s lying he’s a professional lier I’m so stressed out about it all thank you so much and I look forward to next week

    • Jonathan Lionheart
      Posted at 09:54h, 03 October Reply

      Sounds like you already know his track record. I’d want tangible proof he is working on himself, ie therapy, mens groups, etc, before I’d like him get closer. Just my opinion.

  • Virginia
    Posted at 07:14h, 03 October Reply

    Ah what a great reading. Yes I’ve been going through a situation with a sponsee in 12 step recovery that mirrors the first and second cards. We have parted ways and I can feel the relief and safety of the last two cards.

  • gillian choo
    Posted at 07:13h, 03 October Reply

    Spot on 100% Am aware of the gaslighting so it is not so bad now. Cant get rid of the man!! Thank you so much

  • Peter Omwenga Ontita
    Posted at 06:00h, 03 October Reply

    Hi lionheart,
    its amazing that you nailed it what am going through right now.
    my closest partner happened to take my money all of it without my consent.
    and the explanation that she’s giving me is not making sense.

    i dont know how best i can handle this, but i have decided to back off for a while,
    to be alone and think deeply over it.

    • Jonathan Lionheart
      Posted at 09:56h, 03 October Reply

      Sounds like a good response with this kind of transgression. Sending blessings Peter.

  • Sylvianne
    Posted at 05:34h, 03 October Reply

    Thank You Jonathon – I am long time admirer of your finely honed timely insights & deep intuition into the affairs of humankind. Your readings are so very helpful – a guiding light during these challenging times. This particular reading so mirrors my current situation with a particular person and I so needed that mantra “I am safe…when I am safe I can see the truth of what is going on” Fear has created a fog – only in letting go and trusting the universe to take care of me that I can finally see & accept the truth of the situation. Namaste

    • Jonathan Lionheart
      Posted at 09:57h, 03 October Reply

      Happy to hear from you Sylvianne. Yes, safety is key. At a neurochemical level when we are afraid and pumping cortisol it’s very hard to connect with our rational intelligent thinking or our higher intuition.

  • Ruby Tauro
    Posted at 05:28h, 03 October Reply

    Some words weren’t audible to me when you had your voice lowered a bit. Captions were not available so I missed some words. I’m not comparing but Karma is loud & clear. From India.

    • Jonathan Lionheart
      Posted at 09:58h, 03 October Reply

      Thanks for the feedback 🙂 I’ll make some adjustments for the next one.

  • Rachel
    Posted at 05:26h, 03 October Reply

    Is there someone in your life whose actions are confusing you?
    Yes! I have just ended this weekend a newish relationship with someone who basically breadcrumbed be towards the end, lied and gas lit me. I was confused why as it went from being hot to cold, a full 180 flip and I made a lot of effort. And the excuses I got were pathetic and I’m owed money. When I called him out on his behaviour and BS it was flipped around on me and I was called a child as he is older, but after all the previous healing I’ve done I know my worth.

    Has a certain situation been disrupting you emotionally lately?
    Its played on my mind, hurt my feeling but this reading was perfect! now I’m moving on and gathering that will to move forward and let it go. I do know my worth but it made me look inwards again to see where I can improve or if I had actually done anything wrong.

    Do you feel like you need to protect your heart?
    I do! my intuition flagged it early on but during retrograde I’ve missed it. yesterday I sat with the puzzle pieces and realised. I misread the whole thing as you say! and will be listening to my intuition and protecting myself going forward.

    Thank you for the reading. 100% accurate!

  • Raymond Daniels
    Posted at 05:13h, 03 October Reply

    So this is really difficult. I don’t even know how to start. I guess I’ll start by saying over the last couple days I have been put through some difficult things. Before I go any further I’d like to say that its me being the immature one that’s not growing. I’ll take that one. But the other person did something to me last night that makes me realize that I have been manipulated for quite some time time. And earlier this afternoon I lost it. I yelled and got so angry at them that it honestly scared me to my core. So much so that I stopped my self momenta after and wasn’t sure if it was even me. I then removed myself and have talked to them since. But as I’m looking back now. I think I actually understand what is going on. And would like to apologize for how I reacted. Truly. I know now that everything that has been done was and is only sincere help. And defiantly had no malice behind it. So again. I. So sorry. Please forgive. I don’t know what to do about how angry I got. It scares me that that came from me. I have never had that feeling in my hart and don’t ever want it again.

    • Jonathan Lionheart
      Posted at 10:00h, 03 October Reply

      Hey Raymond, thank your for your honesty and vulnerability. Recognizing the places we are needing to grow is a very powerful step. Sending you blessings.

  • Rathisha
    Posted at 04:50h, 03 October Reply

    Is denver being completely honest about his feelings,does he have some one in his life.

  • Malita Cortilas
    Posted at 04:49h, 03 October Reply

    Thank you! This is really crazy for me right now. I’m trying to wrap my mind around it. Only due to the fact that it as damn near EXACTLY my current situations? Strange or coincidence? Not, sure but it definitly will be staying on my mind until the next reading.

  • Sifiso sibanyoni dzimwasha
    Posted at 04:48h, 03 October Reply

    Thanks very much for the reading it making sense now with all that happening currently wow. Appreciated I shall take your advice into action

  • Pinkcandle
    Posted at 04:04h, 03 October Reply

    Wow,,,You’re good Jonathan..I think ua resonates with me uour video but fo you think I can clarify what’s really happening?

  • Parrish
    Posted at 03:36h, 03 October Reply

    Thanks Jonathan. This came as I just hit a roadblock or setback being stuck this morning just happened four hours ago.

    Your words towards the end really resonate and hit home what I’ve been experiencing.

    Thank You

  • Maria del Carmen Rodriguez
    Posted at 03:20h, 03 October Reply

    Thank you for your reading

  • Suzana
    Posted at 03:01h, 03 October Reply

    thank you for your reading……it was exactly what is happening in my world at the moment…

  • Deborah Collis
    Posted at 02:58h, 03 October Reply

    Thank you for your reading today ! I’m struggling with someone that I do believe is minipulatating me . But I have very stronge feelings for this person . It’s so hard when you truly believed you thought this person cared for you ! But underneath I know there’s something not quite right . He rings me then disappears for weeks then comes back . I hate how I feel right at this minute. It’s a kind of ammotional depression. I need to get back to that person that I was . I’m so confused right Now !🥲

    • Jonathan Lionheart
      Posted at 10:04h, 03 October Reply

      Sounds challenging Deborah. Sometimes taking a break from confusing situations to get back to neutral can be very helpful.

      • Storme
        Posted at 08:47h, 04 October Reply

        Hello Jonathan, thank you for your reading you are amazing , I was in a relationship which I ended because I found out he was cheating but he denied it after 3 months of total heartbreak I went back hoping to believe him but his actions on his phone to his wife left me suspicious then this weekend he confirmed the gossip from his close friend was true because he said he was meeting in hotels and intimate with his wife which he told me in the beginning they were over a couple years ago but I don’t believe him anymore my instinct tells me he’s cheated and lied and manipulated me I don’t want this anymore but I feel trapped because I believe I love him im so emotionally drained and exhausted struggling every day with anxiety and im the immature person because I’m not moving past this infidelity so I think that’s what’s making us stuck and my daughter said she will disown me if I don’t get rid of him she hates him I have a big decision to make and I know its to end it im heartbroken and angry

  • Dwayne Overby
    Posted at 02:58h, 03 October Reply

    yes this girl i have a crush on tryna see if she likes me but feel like shes hiding something

  • Leanna Johannes
    Posted at 02:28h, 03 October Reply

    This is exactly what I’m going through at present. My intuition tells me about the lies , manipulation and deceit and I have made up my mind to walk away from all this drama. Just what I needed to hear for confirmation……Thank you

  • Wasilatu olushola deyinbo
    Posted at 02:21h, 03 October Reply

    Hi nice seeing your face, thanks for the reading but I don’t think this is for me. Truly I prefer the personalised reading more accurate than this.

  • Almanee Wilson
    Posted at 02:07h, 03 October Reply

    This reading was for me. I have someone who is sending mix signals and I feel in my heart he is being untruthful. This reading helps me to know that I need to move in and concentrate on me. Thanks

  • Lori McKinney
    Posted at 01:44h, 03 October Reply

    Wow! Right on the money being a general reading! I have someone I have loved my whole entire life n he has played more head games with me seems like nothing that has come out of his mouth has been the truth. Im ready to walk away, never had the courage before. But I am worthy and i will survive!

  • Melissa Angelica Zweifel
    Posted at 01:34h, 03 October Reply

    Hell yeah and I disregarded this at first and at second and third glances…only because we had been doing…what I thought was pretty great. Then. BOOM!!! Per the norm. Per the same ass** ole f****** routine…he still being a lying a** grimy mfer! I’m a f******* idiot! UGGHHHH!!! Idk… Nvm honestly. I don’t want to sit here and b**** about the same ol same ol 4yr routine when inevitably it’s my fault. I keep chosing to be the definition of insanity all for some delusional false sense of faith and hope and just ECT ect…. Doesn’t matter. F****!!! I mean I already did this stupid shit for 12yrs prior to this with one yr in between the only two “relationships” I’ve ever had my entire adult life…and I’m 28. But anyways ..idk.. sorry for the negativity this isn’t who I sincerely am but I’ve been this me for far too long. Idk wtf I’m posed to do next. Safely and effectively. I’ve got two children a nephew, sister , mother, and grandparents that are waiting for me to get this life s*** right. K thnx for reading if read. K bye